Infatuation
Puppy love – remember the 1st time you were smitten by that gorgeous gal or by the stud/hunk ? The heart beats erratically and the hot flushes wouldn’t stop. Such illusions and emotional tricks. Mind games or chemistry or hormones.
Well, so is agitation. The feeling of having just purchased a new computer or a new car and the eagerness to try or to test it. The adrenalin rush. Whether the excitement is good or bad stress it is still desires that prompt us. All desires lead to suffering eventually.
It takes pain to realize pleasure and pleasure to realize pain. Happiness to realize suffering and suffering to contrast happiness. The middle state or ground of equanimity is the neutral state where by all alchemy of personal transformation occur. This aloofness or detached state is passive yet affectionate witnessing. It is not dispassionate negativity but rather non-identification with any ideation or mental concepts. All identifications and understanding are based on memory and memory is a poor foundation to base anything on.
Memory distorts, exaggerates and lapses. Anticipation creates disappointments or worries. Between memory and anticipation lies the present moment however short-lived. When we are consciously aware of the present moment this “here and now” expands with our attention and time stands still or timelessness occur. Spacelessness is total engrossing of the being with the current moment or task at hand.
Any thought behind our minds or any little thing that nags us in our mind distracts and will cause headaches literally if not disregarded or properly understood.
Settling down, calming down and relaxing so we center and slow down our thoughts to a stand still and quietness is like leaving a bucket of water to sit and wait for the sediments to sink down the bottom after days.
In a small, still voice God spoke to Elijah … amidst the storm and mayhem. There might not be any voice. Silence, stillness and quietness is enough to bring harmony internally and healing to occur inwardly. When one is healed, one can share this healing, love, kindness, compassion, generosity, charity to others as after all it is grace and unconditional kindness that we receive in the darkest of hours only if we open up ourselves in pure earnestly and desperation.
Infatuation doesn’t last. Love is giving unconditionally and is glad to have opportunities for it to be given away without expecting any rewards big or small. When one loves himself/herself fully and stop condemning him/herself, one can share this loving-kindness naturally as it overflows from one’s own being.
We can however use the energy of infatuation and transform it to enthusiasm and in recognizing its futility ease back to check ourselves lest we waste our time and hurt ourselves and others. We are not here to hurt ourselves – especially others as well.
